How did I get here.

…at least that’s the question that I’ve asked myself lately because the last year, with all of its up’s and down’s, has been very interesting.  You see, when I started this journey, I never expected it to be the emotional roller coaster that it’s turned out to be.  I’ve gone from feeling incredibly empowered in the beginning to feeling utterly depressed these days and I gave up along the way.

Recently I’ve had a bit of a debate going on in my head.  Do I continue to “fake it” by eating crap food and then going to the gym and half-ass’ing it….  or do I get serious by getting back on track and take the necessary steps to lose another hundred pounds.  The answer is of course, yes…  get back on track and get back to work and lose another hundred pounds.  My issues center around being lazy and lacking the motivation to push my body, so I’ll need to dig deep to figure how to keep motivated.  I don’t have much support in my life…  and I stopped caring about improving the my quality of life.  Perhaps I just needed a break, I don’t know….  but I’m committing myself to a solid week of workouts and eating better starting tomorrow.  I’ll weigh myself each day and tally up the results at the end of the week…. I’m going to treat it as an adventure in weight loss.  Wish me luck, ‘cuz I’m going to need it.