Previous Weight: 315.0 lbs
Current Weight: 318.2 lbs
Loss/Gain: +3.2 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 74.8 lbs
Where to begin…. last week was a rough one for me (in terms of diet and exercise). On Saturday I went to a local Craft Beer festival and proceeded to get extremely drunk and eat a ton of crap food; pizza, polish sausages, churo’s, gourmet licorice, etc. I knew the gain was coming so I’m not going to dwell on that right now. I sort of treated last week as a much-needed break and I’m going to cut myself some slack.
I’ve struggled a lot lately and it’s all in my head. I just can’t seem to find focus and the willingness to “care” about losing weight right now. I don’t really know why, but it’s been very hard to put a finger on what exactly is going on with me right now, and since I can’t seem to figure it out, I’ll just keep putting one foot in front of the other and try to not think about it.
Part of the problem, I believe, is that I’m not able (or willing) to cut myself some slack and celebrate the progress that I’ve already made. The above picture was taken at the Beer Festival and when I look at it, all I see is someone who needs to lose 120 lbs. I don’t see someone who’s lost 75 lbs or someone who is taking control of his life by doing the necessary work to finally free himself of an incredible burden. It’s a total mind-fuck.
I'm a web technologist living in Northern California who drinks tea, makes beer and likes to take pictures. I'm also on a journey to lose 200 lbs and change my life for the better. I'm 110 lbs down, 90 more to go.
You know what I see? A guy smiling – and that’s not something that you post often here.
Truth is, we’re going to have days / weeks like that. But the more important part? “since I can’t seem to figure it out, I’ll just keep putting one foot in front of the other and try to not think about it.” Just keep on keepin’ on and you’ll get there.
Try not to think of it as 120 pounds you have to lose. Think of it as 5 or 10 pounds you have to lose. And once you lose those? What the hell…how about another 5 or 10? Break it up into smaller bites. It’s easier to digest that way.
I totally agree with Goodbyefatgirl! I see a very rare smile and I love it!!!
Chris, I definitely see someone whose lost 75 lbs! And who looks like he is having fun. You have to take a break and do that once in a while. Everyone has their ups and downs, but don’t be discouraged!